Identity Crisis

Lately I feel as if I am having somewhat of an identity crisis.

I know that sounds weird and at 31 not ideal obviously.

I'm not saying that I'm not happy or not confident in who I am in this stage of my life but it's been a very confusing time.

I was used to being a wife for the past almost 7 years, something that I thought was my main identity.

Only to find out it was only a part of who I was and I am still trying to figure out what really defines me and who "Lauren" is.

Now I am a girlfriend, a career girl, close to my family and have that strong group of girlfriends that have really been there for me throughout the past 4 months.

I am blessed.

But I am also hurting.

Some days when I wake up I miss my old job when I was working in weddings, although I still work in events now it just isn't the same. 

My goal is to keep doing some wedding coordinating on the side since I just simply cannot get out of the field, I love it too much.
That is a part of me that is special and near to my heart and even though I am going through a divorce I do believe that many people can get married and have their happily ever after.

Sometimes it's weird not wearing my wedding rings anymore, at first I felt very insecure like I wasn't myself and with the rings not present anymore I do get some questions but I am more comfortable as time goes on.

I am confident in my new relationship and it's thriving.

Recently my boyfriend accepted a new chef position with an amazing and very well known and respected catering company here in Florida. I was proud to have helped him with some career coaching like I do on the side at times and just seeing him so happy and excited about starting this new opportunity makes me thrilled.

Our relationship is open and honest and we communicate like I have never with anyone in my life.

It's an amazing feeling to have found someone I care about and connect with so much, it really is.

So as for my identity crisis, I am figuring out who I am again one step at a time. 

Getting back to my roots and exploring new opportunities when they come along in my career.

It's exciting but can be stressful at times as well, but I am sure that I will figure it out and just learn to be happy, appreciate life and live it fully.


xo

Lauren